Hi it's been a while. Sorry I'm not active really at all .

I'm quite nervous to be posting on here.
I don't think I'll be breaking out some new art for a while. I don't really have the same drive for it as I used to. I'm attributing it to:

1. Not having practiced enough and feeling anxious about the quality of art that I'll be able to put out
2. Not being able to practice because my boyfriend doesn't know I do any of this and he wants to spend time together and I want to do my own thing but he doesn't know what my own thing is..

It may seem kind of strange, but I don't make it public that I draw in a style that resembles most all of the art in my deviantART gallery. That is, no one irl knows that I still draw this anime stuff. That is, I think I'm embarrassed to admit that I do. That is, I am ashamed that this anime stuff is all I can do.

I've been recently thinking about telling people(person) about this gallery. About the 500-600 pictures I've drawin since 2004. It's been on my mind for a few months now actually. I got a boyfriend (a year ago)... and I think maybe I should be telling him this kind of thing? Or maybe I should just push this chapter of my life aside and well, let it die. I mean it's something that can be grown out of.. and he doesn't have to know?

I don't know D:. It's kind of a strange thing to be so worried about. I've been having stress dreams about it D:.

I think what I'm trying to ask here to you folks is... should I tell him about this? Or should I just let it fade away, because its not like not telling him is doing any harm?

Ah!

edit: additionally, i'm curious as to how... i dunno, socially acceptable it is to like anime in the environments you're in? From my position, it seems that anime stuff is almost.. mocked by most people.. which also contributes to this shame i feel i guess.