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This is a picture about accepting that I'm not in an art related field of study, but I shouldn't feel as though I cannot do art just because I'm not in that field. This picture is about me getting over the bitterness of the major I am in, and coming to terms with it.
So here are my confessions:
I'm a biochemistry and molecular biology major. I decided to stay in this major because I didn't know what the hell I wanted to do at first. I chose to put myself through the pain of studying, labs, and stress. At any point I could have changed majors or dropped out of school, but I didn't and I have no one to blame for that, because ultimately, I did have a choice.
I don't hate this major. However, it is a LOT of work, and I often feel overwhelmed by it because I don't understand as much as others. I can't blame them for my lack of understanding. I shouldn't blame myself for not being perfect at it. I should try my hardest and do what I can. I shouldn't punish myself by taking away art, which consumed 4 solid years of my life during high school. I shouldn't ignore that chapter of my life.
I realize now that I cannot shut art out of my life, because it is something that has kept my mind in check and it is something that makes me happy to do. I realize now that even though I am not improving as much as I thought I would be before I entered university in 2008, it's not a race. I can pace myself and improvement isn't as important as enjoying what I do with art. The brushstrokes, the colours, the textures, the pressure sensitivity - these are the things that actually matter.
This random desire to make these assertions was definitely inspired by and her conflict between art and her studies. Reading about her passion for art and her perseverance through her studies made me realize that I don't have to shut out art from my life.
About the image:
2hrs 3 minutes, oekaki shi-painter, tablet
It's about the feeling of being caged, but having the key. Yah I know, I'm bad with subtlety in my pictures .
BTW. I did tell my bf about my anime/manga stuff. I realize now how silly it was to think he would dump me over something like that. Of course, I still have trouble with confessing to the anime/manga stuff to my friends and just random people, but perhaps in time I will be able to freely express that.
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Heh, I can relate. Except that I'm trying to juggle music in there too.. >_>
And good!
And good!